Just writing

I have ideas. Lots of them. Different stories. Some even interconnecting. They're all there. In my head. I know how some begin. I know how some end. I know bits and pieces here and there. But I don't know the most important parts. The details.

I know the larger settings, but not the specifics. I know where I want to go, but not how to get there.

This is true in my writing as well as my professional life. I know where I want to go, but I don't fully understand what I need to do to get there.

As for the professional part, maybe I just need to be really awesome in the interview. I don't really know what else to do on the personal side to show that I can write.

Then, it all comes back to that. Personal writing. As mentioned above, I have many ideas for creative writing; however, not so much for other forms. I need an assignment or project. Something directed. I've had a few things like that at work recently, and I feel they were pretty successful; however, the opportunities are few and far between.

I really tried with web development, and I understand the basics of HTML, XHTML, and CSS; however, in the end, I just don't find it interesting. I like writing. I like taking words and creating with them. I like taking assignments and producing.

Back to creative stuff. NaNoWirMo is starting up in November like normal. I think I should do it. I want to do it. I think I have an idea for it. I just need to make the details happen. I need to make the story appear on paper. 50,000+ words by the end of November. How do I get the details right? That's where the devil is, right?

I honestly love what I do. I know I'm good at it; however, I don't want to do it forever. I want to write. I want to write for the company I'm part of now. And, while it may sound silly, I don't care what department in the company I write for.

Someone may see that as, "Oh, you're not passionate," or, "You just want out of what you're doing now." That's not true. I love my company, and I really feel I can write in any department. I know I can write any form, and I may be rusty on some but I can learn anything. I am passionate. I burn like a fire. I care about this company. I know it's not true, but sometimes I feel like the only one.

I do know it's true that, to some, it's simply a job they do for money to pay bills and party. But I use the products. I care about them. I care about the future. I want to be part of it, I want to build it.

I just don't know how. I don't know how to be part of it. I always feel outside the structure.

I'm going to try to buckle down. I want to do NaNoWriMo. I need to. I need to produce solid, completed creative writing. I do want to be more than just a writer in name. I want to be a novelist. I just need the details.

A Portfolio

So, I am a writer. That's what I've always wanted to be, and that's what I am. I can write. Everyone that has ever read anything I've written has told me so. So, there is no question to that statement. I am a writer.

However, that alone will not get me a job writing. Only writing will do that for me. However, I've been a little stuck on what to write.

Ultimately, I do want to be a creative writer, and that's why I'm working on projects like Found. It's why I'm trying to work with a friend on a webcomic idea. It's why I'm working with two different group of friends on some game design ideas. And, it's why I'm always trying to think of a story to write.

I don't think I've been very successful; though, when it comes to creative writing. I've yet to finish a story, or create one that I've been able to stick to. Of course, like all creative writers, I do have that one story, but I've just not been able to sit down and get it out.

If I want to be part of the game industry as far as creative development goes, I need to do something. I need to make a change. I need to write something. I have to find that spark, that creative fount that overflows. If you happen to know where it is, let me know.

Outside of creative writing; though, I am solid at other types of writing. Professional and technical. I mean, you've seen two of my reviews, and I think they're pretty good. The same goes for things I write up at work for customers. They're generally "form" type letters that expresses my compay’s stance on a certain situation. So, far, I think I've produced some very good ones! Other people seem to agree.

Now, technical writing, there are a few jobs at my company that needs a technical writer. Never really see anything for professional writers, but technical writing is where it is at there. Though, to be fair, professional writing can lend itself to technical writing. Any good writing can lend itself to a different type.

I need some technical writing samples; though. I need something to show potential employers that I can write.

I'm just not sure what to write up. I'm thinking of putting together a small technical document for the Starcraft II editor. It's a pretty cool tool, and it would be fun to play around with and write about. Same can be said for the Neverwinter Editor as well.

Maybe some screenshots and explanation of the toolbars and actions in the editor.

This is all leading to something. I want an active, growing portfolio of writing examples from creative to technical. I want to make it online as well. I also want to include level design samples as well as design documents for those levels.

Yes, I really do want to be in the game industry. I want to be part of the creation aspect; though.

So, here I sit, wondering where to go from here.