Here I am again to talk about SMMO. I know, I just talked about it the other day or whenever; however, I'm really excited for Skyrim. It just seems like the perfect idea! Even if we wanted to limit the idea down, we could make it so that players only met up with other players in Taverns and such where they could chat, trade spoils, etc. I think it would really add to that particular genre so much. I just don't know if we'll see it done. At least not done by Bethesda, and if they don't do it, I'm not sure I'd be interested.
Anyway, not too much of a productive week. I finished chapter 7 and 8 in my big book of programming, and then finished out the week with some Morrowind (preparing for Skyrim!) and some Dead Island. Dead Island isn't as bad as I thought it would be; however, there are some issues. Oh, yeah, I'll get to those, but just not in this post. I still have to do an Infamous 2 review, and I'm going to make that happen finally by the end of my next weekend. I plan to do some writing next weekend including Infamous review and some work on Project Steamworks. I really need to get some story concepts written up. Wouldn't want to make J' upset.
Still working with the HTML stuff as noted by finishing the CSS chapters at the start of this weekend, but I just wasn't ready to jump into the design and design issues chapters just yet. It's so much stuff, and I'm just nervous that'll never get it all down and useable. Not sure if I'll ever be good, you know? Which brings up the question of what am I really good at, and was my time in college really worth it in the end. I love my job and all, but I don't know if my degree will ever help me there in any way. I really didn't even need one to make it into my current line of work, and it's obvious that it's not really necessary to go forward (nor does it really seem to be of help). So, I just wonder if it would have been better to have either went for something else or not even went at all. If I hadn't went, perhaps I would have found a job and built of practical experience which seems to be what everyone wants vs. theoretical experience. That's what I get for wanting to be a writer, especially since I can't seem to write anything.
So, along with my other writing endeavors (the reason I'm going back to the Infamous review finally), I think I want to build of some gaming reviews. So, play like a reviewer, and not necessarily a gamer;then, pump out some reviews. So, I could use those as writing examples for websites, maybe some freelancing stuff. There are some non-freelancing stuff, too, but along with the moderation job, I need to compile that information and get it to my HR rep to review. I also need to setup a meeting with her this work week (probably Monday) to discuss my 401k so that I can finally set it up. I hate bureaucratic stuff, it makes me nervous.
I've also been thinking about one of my greatest weakness, and totally the particular weakness that makes me suck in interviews. I'm talking, of course, about my lack of public speaking abilities. Verbal communication in generally, but mostly aimed at speaking with more than one person,or in a situation that's important with someone in which I may be unfamiliar. I pretty much set myself up for failure when it comes up to lack of public speaking training since I avoided the class in college; however, I did that because I was terrified of public speaking. I just don't know what to do to overcome my fear as well as my inability to overcome it. Improv classes have been suggested, but I'm too nervous to even do that. I think a lot of it comes down to lack of confidence (another big weakness) and insecurity about my accent/voice. I much rather like typing things because, in most cases, I feel far more comfortable and confidant.
Anyway, it's pretty much time for bed. I may read till noon and go to sleep. It depends on how I feel when I go in there. I'm not particularly tired, but I still need to get some sleep. I do have a strange craving for soy sauce, though. Oh, well. G'night.
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